First Anniversary of the Journey.. Part 2...

So, the first year just finished.  We made it. 

Everything used to say, marriage is hard.

Yeah it is hard but fruitful as well.  She is my best friend and the girl i used to dream about. My heart is exploding with the emotions.

Real relationships are a crazy ride, full of ups and downs. They are a journey, rife with tough times and bad phases. They are never perfect. But despite all the flaws, fights and arguments, real relationships stand out as one of the most beautiful, amazing and innocent things life has to offer. There nothing like it, and never will be.

Its similar kind of feeling what we get on a New year's eve when we think what we have achieved in the last year. That last year, I achieved a fortune and I cane even begin to believe it. There are hundreds of things which we have done, learn, experienced and achieved.

It feels like if it was y'day and I remember it so clearly. Each and every moment and every vow wee have taken together. At the same time, it also feels like its been forever like living together, doing mundane stuff like shopping, cooking, taunting and making fun of each other. She both gained weight and that is only
regret we both have and we have to commit to ourselves that we will be back to where we started this journey, more happier and lighter as well :) :)

There is one good and lovely thing about the relationships is that you never stop learning more and more about each other. All those fights, arguments and stresses in that last year were part of the learning curve and i think that made as more closer to each other and i feel its a great achievement itself for us.

There is special feeling in waking up in each other arms and sharing those wonderful moments together. The love in those moments don't judge by what you wear or how fat you are and how dreadful you snore. Those moments are the best moments  as each of you are the most important to each other and trying your best to make each other a better person.

After this whole year now we know more what actually is the meaning of a marriage than on a wedding day. This one year accomplishment will acts as a baseline for the future which looks very optimistic.

Our first year of marriage has proved that no matter how fiercely we fight with each other like cats, we always end up loving each other like swans.


It reminds me of a small poem... Don't know who has written it but its worth mentioning:

I don’t want to open my eyes
It is a dream I have been living
I don’t want to pinch myself
Because it’s been so amazing
I don’t want this fantasy
To ever come to an end
The rest of my life, darling
With you, I want to spend
In a way that is the epitome
Of love, romance and passion
Because our love truly is
A pristine and undying devotion
Happy 1st anniversary


One year is just a number
Our relationship means much more
It cannot be measured
In numbers like two, three or four
We both are way beyond
Using an anniversary to measure
A marriage, that is nothing short
Of being a precious treasure
So putting the numbers aside
Here’s a toast to you and me
Darling, I wish you
A very happy 1st anniversary

Her own Stranger..

This little and cute girl, the most favorite to her parents had decided to start the new phase of her life with a stranger of whom she met just couple of times and whom she knew very little about. This was going to be the biggest decision of her life more than anything taken ever.

She had so many confusions, questions, hopes and a little fear as well. During the whole phase millions of questions running in her mind but she knew she has to go through this. Her inner instincts were assuring her everything gonna be alright. Every girl go through this and hope for the best and so does she.

Time just flied more than the speed of light while she was just busy in shopping, rituals and what not. So many hopes and best wishes were fluttering around her and all of them were assuring her of the best times in future.

She look the dive and in a click of second she was not in a strangers arms whom she has to tell herself. She was little scared but things went well and mostly as per her expectations. Few thing here and there were bit misaligned but that's what the life is.

And just after a week, that moment came where she has to live alone among the crowd of strangers for next two weeks before she can fly out to him. Toughest time it was for her. She was just counting the moments and every moment was feeling her a year to her. She gave her life, parents, friends and career for this and just because of society stereotypes, she has to go though this. Still, in silence she went by those times and finally she was with him again and then came the little adventurous times of few weeks and some months went by. She was happy most of the times but sad few times. He was also trying to pacify her but how on the earth he can understand her feelings. He dint had an iota of understanding about what she was going through.

Her family was near but so far. She was now of someone else and  it has to be like  that now.

She has the aspirations and trying hard to get them. She is the queen to him but he is not the ideal kinng she aspires to. She is struggling to give her best shot but he is not up to the speed.

He understands it but don't say anything.

The writer hopes she will blend in soon and he understands what she is going through and both will take this life boat smoothly in this storm of emotions.

First Anniversary of the Journey.. Part 1..

So, one year has finished since we became one from two different individuals. Wooho, what a journey it was. It was little bumpy like all the flights I have ever taken started being nervous but manageable. There were few ups and downs but yeah it was actually a very nice experience.

I know I did few of the disasters in this one year and I regret them fully to the core of my heart.  I don't know what I was thinking while those disasters were getting executed. Those low moments are never going to leave my memory  and there are no excuses for those disasters and I fully blame myself for them. I ask for the  forgiveness which i don't deserve.

This journey was not a shot of catapult but a slow moving cart with some potholes on which we have to go bit slow.

I came to know many things about myself as well in this journey which i was not aware of. Of course guys, there were more bad things than the good ones and the better half was very active in pointing them out. I really appreciate her hard work on that and I know its very difficult to change those bad habits of mine as you habits are tough to handle but I have given my best and trying my best to take care of them.

No one in this world is  perfect and will never be. But if we know of our bad things we should try to fix them and that's what I am doing.

Many times I don't even realize I am having those so they exist and might need a kick or pull to tell me..  dude  see what you are doing. Its bit embarrassing when pointed out but yeah that's the only way  to fix them up as well.

Ok,ok lets go back to journey things which  I am diverting from.

I never thought that the journey  will go that smooth but  it went well better than my expectations but I am sure it dint went as per her expectations.

Having higher expectations is a good thing and than only we can get the best goal achieved.
I promise that the ongoing journey will be much better than the previous one and i hope it will keep on getting better as we move forward.

There are some complexities which we  need to take care for sure.


OK then.. I am writing a story on my journey as well.. will post it asap...

I am sorry Love

I love you so very much,
Even though at times I do things that hurt.
I try so hard to hope that you always see
How much you being in my life means to me.
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain.
That is the last thing I ever wanted to do.
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing,
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the thrill of being loved by you.
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes,
This sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.


By Whitestar.....

The Strange Case of Misunderstanding

The misunderstanding is cruel thing. It creates the perception. That perception is mostly wrong in my case by the other person. Many times people misunderstands me. They think I don't care of them.
Some time my actions creates a feeling like I am a selfish person. I say, everyone is this world is selfish but for those everyone there is someone for them they can go any heights.
Still, unknowingly some of our actions looked like there is no care for them. Its not that simple.
Judging someone just by seeing few instances is cruelty we are making to  them.

I do care for them and for some its much more than myself. I have never cared much for myself and try to go easy way for myself.

I am not really sure how to change the perception. Actions are the only  way which changes the perception but those too also needs a particular amount of refinement. My habit of going bit fast with few things is also one of the cause of this.

In the rage of doing something fast, I miss some key things and they are the ones which hits the iron and flutter around me and creates a turmoil of issues.

Hope Some day these actions of mine will be refined and I am able to change the perception.

The First Evening in Asian Paradise :)

So, here we were at the airport heading to the most awaited journey after those hard months of marriage preparations, facing those heat waves, sweating throughout the various rituals, feeling happy & sad and many more new life experiences. Yes, we flying to our so called honeymoon to the honeymooners paradise, Baliiiiiiiiiii.


It was a nice day with clear skies and we hopped on to the flight to Bangkok and then hitched to a flight to Denpasar from there. When plane started descending, it was all blue down with small islands in the view. An amazing descend I have ever seen after the French Alps an year back while travelling through Europe. Nice view lasted with nice lading as the airport is on the shore and it looks like you are going to touch the water while landing. :)


After touchdown, it was time for immigration etc which went pretty fast and we got our driver who took to our villa through clean roads full of cars and tourists. In between the market, inside a galley, we reached our destination, a cool nice small 2 room villa with all facilities and a small cute pool. After resting, we hit the nearby beach, the Double Six beach.


What a nice environment it was. Although Sun was already down, but there was some light and small kites with cute little lamps were n the sight in sky. A clean, flat, long beach with couple hands in hands, some showing their love to the fullest standing in the water. Nice songs were making the background bit more lovely. That evening, the first in Bali was so amazing that its not going to leave my mind forever.

Meeting in treachrous weather ............... :)

So, the meeting date was fixed weeks back. Although there was some confusion over the place and timing and the excuses to be made to the family but the probability of meeting was very higher. Both of us were looking ahead for the meeting. The days were passing by somehow. Sometimes in the excitement and sometimes in the sadness of being so far and the never ending wait for the day.

As the day was approaching, various discussions have held as where to meet, what to wear and where to go etc. etc. But as I know nothing in my life go perfectly planned, I was bit sceptical if there is anything going to come out of that discussion but it was the discussion that was holding both of us and all-in-all it was great.

So, finally the day has come and we were meeting after the proper approvals etc.: p (u knows what I mean). I took early morning flight and landed on time. Although I was damn hungry but the excitement of meeting her has overcome all the hunger pangs. She told that she is already near the venue (Starbucks in CP) and I was still near airport, stuck in famous Ring road traffic jam of Saddi Dilli.

Somehow, 30 mins late, I reached CP a looking for Starbucks and following Google maps (which is the savior nowadays). I called her and she said she is there only. I was looking here and there but she was nowhere. Even the glass of Starbucks was hiding the people sitting inside. Suddenly a tap on my shoulder and I see her astonishingly. That instant I was like blank which generally happens to me when something unexpected happen even the smallest of the incidents. Anyhow, I got my consciousness back with the lightning speed and we hugged (not that big hug but a smaller one). The warmth of a hug is an amazing thing one can ever get.

We moved inside the overpriced Coffee shop: p and ordered some overpriced coffee and some overpriced cookie (stressing on over-price as it seems Starbucks in India is much expensive then it is in US). Now, it was time for some chit-chat but as we were meeting long 5 months and it was our third meeting and first one in the private (private as in without family and friends, I hope it would have been private-private though: p). Both of us being little nervous but it was my duty to make the things more comfortable so I started doing some "idhar-udhar" ki baatein.

Our order came and she hated the coffee like anything (both mine and hers) but thankfully she liked the cookie, which was ok :). We were still doing some chit-chat but still a bit nervous as it were taking hell lot of time for us to be comfortable with each other. But the good news was as the time was rolling, we were getting comfortable and I was trying to look in her beautiful chirping eyes again and again. I love to look into people's eyes as they always tell the real story and you can hide your intentions.

We decided go hit for some shopping and taking hands in hands, moving shops to shops, finding some dresses. She got me some stuff and it’s really a great help if you take a girl with you for shopping, especially for me it’s a big task to shop for clothes. Post that shopping, we realized that hunger pangs are taking over us and I have to catch a bus to home as well and she got to go run some errands. We tried to find the famous Saravana bhavan and found it finally after some jiggling here and there. Reaching there and ordered some south Indian delicacies with hands in hands. IT was the time we were finally relaxing after surviving the humid Delhi weather and drenched in sweat but that time was lovely. Eating food together, hands in hands and sharing those bites, what a mesmerizing feel it gives to me.

I was like that we keep on sitting there for hours and don’t go anywhere but the clock is ticking fast and it was time to go. We reached metro station and standing in the line to catch my metro, it was one of the toughest times to let her go. Those lines of song of Passenger, Let her go, bustling in my mind with the emotions overflowing but that’s the reality we had to face.

Finally, it was time to her hand go and start another treacherous journey and the next wait for another meeting after a week.

Next few hours, it was those 3 hours memories which were rolling. Although, it was a nice meeting but the hell of weather made sure that we don’t enjoy the moments much but even with that, we tried our best to enjoy as much as we can.