First Anniversary of the Journey.. Part 2...

So, the first year just finished.  We made it. 

Everything used to say, marriage is hard.

Yeah it is hard but fruitful as well.  She is my best friend and the girl i used to dream about. My heart is exploding with the emotions.

Real relationships are a crazy ride, full of ups and downs. They are a journey, rife with tough times and bad phases. They are never perfect. But despite all the flaws, fights and arguments, real relationships stand out as one of the most beautiful, amazing and innocent things life has to offer. There nothing like it, and never will be.

Its similar kind of feeling what we get on a New year's eve when we think what we have achieved in the last year. That last year, I achieved a fortune and I cane even begin to believe it. There are hundreds of things which we have done, learn, experienced and achieved.

It feels like if it was y'day and I remember it so clearly. Each and every moment and every vow wee have taken together. At the same time, it also feels like its been forever like living together, doing mundane stuff like shopping, cooking, taunting and making fun of each other. She both gained weight and that is only
regret we both have and we have to commit to ourselves that we will be back to where we started this journey, more happier and lighter as well :) :)

There is one good and lovely thing about the relationships is that you never stop learning more and more about each other. All those fights, arguments and stresses in that last year were part of the learning curve and i think that made as more closer to each other and i feel its a great achievement itself for us.

There is special feeling in waking up in each other arms and sharing those wonderful moments together. The love in those moments don't judge by what you wear or how fat you are and how dreadful you snore. Those moments are the best moments  as each of you are the most important to each other and trying your best to make each other a better person.

After this whole year now we know more what actually is the meaning of a marriage than on a wedding day. This one year accomplishment will acts as a baseline for the future which looks very optimistic.

Our first year of marriage has proved that no matter how fiercely we fight with each other like cats, we always end up loving each other like swans.


It reminds me of a small poem... Don't know who has written it but its worth mentioning:

I don’t want to open my eyes
It is a dream I have been living
I don’t want to pinch myself
Because it’s been so amazing
I don’t want this fantasy
To ever come to an end
The rest of my life, darling
With you, I want to spend
In a way that is the epitome
Of love, romance and passion
Because our love truly is
A pristine and undying devotion
Happy 1st anniversary


One year is just a number
Our relationship means much more
It cannot be measured
In numbers like two, three or four
We both are way beyond
Using an anniversary to measure
A marriage, that is nothing short
Of being a precious treasure
So putting the numbers aside
Here’s a toast to you and me
Darling, I wish you
A very happy 1st anniversary

Her own Stranger..

This little and cute girl, the most favorite to her parents had decided to start the new phase of her life with a stranger of whom she met just couple of times and whom she knew very little about. This was going to be the biggest decision of her life more than anything taken ever.

She had so many confusions, questions, hopes and a little fear as well. During the whole phase millions of questions running in her mind but she knew she has to go through this. Her inner instincts were assuring her everything gonna be alright. Every girl go through this and hope for the best and so does she.

Time just flied more than the speed of light while she was just busy in shopping, rituals and what not. So many hopes and best wishes were fluttering around her and all of them were assuring her of the best times in future.

She look the dive and in a click of second she was not in a strangers arms whom she has to tell herself. She was little scared but things went well and mostly as per her expectations. Few thing here and there were bit misaligned but that's what the life is.

And just after a week, that moment came where she has to live alone among the crowd of strangers for next two weeks before she can fly out to him. Toughest time it was for her. She was just counting the moments and every moment was feeling her a year to her. She gave her life, parents, friends and career for this and just because of society stereotypes, she has to go though this. Still, in silence she went by those times and finally she was with him again and then came the little adventurous times of few weeks and some months went by. She was happy most of the times but sad few times. He was also trying to pacify her but how on the earth he can understand her feelings. He dint had an iota of understanding about what she was going through.

Her family was near but so far. She was now of someone else and  it has to be like  that now.

She has the aspirations and trying hard to get them. She is the queen to him but he is not the ideal kinng she aspires to. She is struggling to give her best shot but he is not up to the speed.

He understands it but don't say anything.

The writer hopes she will blend in soon and he understands what she is going through and both will take this life boat smoothly in this storm of emotions.

First Anniversary of the Journey.. Part 1..

So, one year has finished since we became one from two different individuals. Wooho, what a journey it was. It was little bumpy like all the flights I have ever taken started being nervous but manageable. There were few ups and downs but yeah it was actually a very nice experience.

I know I did few of the disasters in this one year and I regret them fully to the core of my heart.  I don't know what I was thinking while those disasters were getting executed. Those low moments are never going to leave my memory  and there are no excuses for those disasters and I fully blame myself for them. I ask for the  forgiveness which i don't deserve.

This journey was not a shot of catapult but a slow moving cart with some potholes on which we have to go bit slow.

I came to know many things about myself as well in this journey which i was not aware of. Of course guys, there were more bad things than the good ones and the better half was very active in pointing them out. I really appreciate her hard work on that and I know its very difficult to change those bad habits of mine as you habits are tough to handle but I have given my best and trying my best to take care of them.

No one in this world is  perfect and will never be. But if we know of our bad things we should try to fix them and that's what I am doing.

Many times I don't even realize I am having those so they exist and might need a kick or pull to tell me..  dude  see what you are doing. Its bit embarrassing when pointed out but yeah that's the only way  to fix them up as well.

Ok,ok lets go back to journey things which  I am diverting from.

I never thought that the journey  will go that smooth but  it went well better than my expectations but I am sure it dint went as per her expectations.

Having higher expectations is a good thing and than only we can get the best goal achieved.
I promise that the ongoing journey will be much better than the previous one and i hope it will keep on getting better as we move forward.

There are some complexities which we  need to take care for sure.


OK then.. I am writing a story on my journey as well.. will post it asap...

I am sorry Love

I love you so very much,
Even though at times I do things that hurt.
I try so hard to hope that you always see
How much you being in my life means to me.
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain.
That is the last thing I ever wanted to do.
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing,
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the thrill of being loved by you.
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes,
This sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.


By Whitestar.....

The Strange Case of Misunderstanding

The misunderstanding is cruel thing. It creates the perception. That perception is mostly wrong in my case by the other person. Many times people misunderstands me. They think I don't care of them.
Some time my actions creates a feeling like I am a selfish person. I say, everyone is this world is selfish but for those everyone there is someone for them they can go any heights.
Still, unknowingly some of our actions looked like there is no care for them. Its not that simple.
Judging someone just by seeing few instances is cruelty we are making to  them.

I do care for them and for some its much more than myself. I have never cared much for myself and try to go easy way for myself.

I am not really sure how to change the perception. Actions are the only  way which changes the perception but those too also needs a particular amount of refinement. My habit of going bit fast with few things is also one of the cause of this.

In the rage of doing something fast, I miss some key things and they are the ones which hits the iron and flutter around me and creates a turmoil of issues.

Hope Some day these actions of mine will be refined and I am able to change the perception.

The First Evening in Asian Paradise :)

So, here we were at the airport heading to the most awaited journey after those hard months of marriage preparations, facing those heat waves, sweating throughout the various rituals, feeling happy & sad and many more new life experiences. Yes, we flying to our so called honeymoon to the honeymooners paradise, Baliiiiiiiiiii.


It was a nice day with clear skies and we hopped on to the flight to Bangkok and then hitched to a flight to Denpasar from there. When plane started descending, it was all blue down with small islands in the view. An amazing descend I have ever seen after the French Alps an year back while travelling through Europe. Nice view lasted with nice lading as the airport is on the shore and it looks like you are going to touch the water while landing. :)


After touchdown, it was time for immigration etc which went pretty fast and we got our driver who took to our villa through clean roads full of cars and tourists. In between the market, inside a galley, we reached our destination, a cool nice small 2 room villa with all facilities and a small cute pool. After resting, we hit the nearby beach, the Double Six beach.


What a nice environment it was. Although Sun was already down, but there was some light and small kites with cute little lamps were n the sight in sky. A clean, flat, long beach with couple hands in hands, some showing their love to the fullest standing in the water. Nice songs were making the background bit more lovely. That evening, the first in Bali was so amazing that its not going to leave my mind forever.

Meeting in treachrous weather ............... :)

So, the meeting date was fixed weeks back. Although there was some confusion over the place and timing and the excuses to be made to the family but the probability of meeting was very higher. Both of us were looking ahead for the meeting. The days were passing by somehow. Sometimes in the excitement and sometimes in the sadness of being so far and the never ending wait for the day.

As the day was approaching, various discussions have held as where to meet, what to wear and where to go etc. etc. But as I know nothing in my life go perfectly planned, I was bit sceptical if there is anything going to come out of that discussion but it was the discussion that was holding both of us and all-in-all it was great.

So, finally the day has come and we were meeting after the proper approvals etc.: p (u knows what I mean). I took early morning flight and landed on time. Although I was damn hungry but the excitement of meeting her has overcome all the hunger pangs. She told that she is already near the venue (Starbucks in CP) and I was still near airport, stuck in famous Ring road traffic jam of Saddi Dilli.

Somehow, 30 mins late, I reached CP a looking for Starbucks and following Google maps (which is the savior nowadays). I called her and she said she is there only. I was looking here and there but she was nowhere. Even the glass of Starbucks was hiding the people sitting inside. Suddenly a tap on my shoulder and I see her astonishingly. That instant I was like blank which generally happens to me when something unexpected happen even the smallest of the incidents. Anyhow, I got my consciousness back with the lightning speed and we hugged (not that big hug but a smaller one). The warmth of a hug is an amazing thing one can ever get.

We moved inside the overpriced Coffee shop: p and ordered some overpriced coffee and some overpriced cookie (stressing on over-price as it seems Starbucks in India is much expensive then it is in US). Now, it was time for some chit-chat but as we were meeting long 5 months and it was our third meeting and first one in the private (private as in without family and friends, I hope it would have been private-private though: p). Both of us being little nervous but it was my duty to make the things more comfortable so I started doing some "idhar-udhar" ki baatein.

Our order came and she hated the coffee like anything (both mine and hers) but thankfully she liked the cookie, which was ok :). We were still doing some chit-chat but still a bit nervous as it were taking hell lot of time for us to be comfortable with each other. But the good news was as the time was rolling, we were getting comfortable and I was trying to look in her beautiful chirping eyes again and again. I love to look into people's eyes as they always tell the real story and you can hide your intentions.

We decided go hit for some shopping and taking hands in hands, moving shops to shops, finding some dresses. She got me some stuff and it’s really a great help if you take a girl with you for shopping, especially for me it’s a big task to shop for clothes. Post that shopping, we realized that hunger pangs are taking over us and I have to catch a bus to home as well and she got to go run some errands. We tried to find the famous Saravana bhavan and found it finally after some jiggling here and there. Reaching there and ordered some south Indian delicacies with hands in hands. IT was the time we were finally relaxing after surviving the humid Delhi weather and drenched in sweat but that time was lovely. Eating food together, hands in hands and sharing those bites, what a mesmerizing feel it gives to me.

I was like that we keep on sitting there for hours and don’t go anywhere but the clock is ticking fast and it was time to go. We reached metro station and standing in the line to catch my metro, it was one of the toughest times to let her go. Those lines of song of Passenger, Let her go, bustling in my mind with the emotions overflowing but that’s the reality we had to face.

Finally, it was time to her hand go and start another treacherous journey and the next wait for another meeting after a week.

Next few hours, it was those 3 hours memories which were rolling. Although, it was a nice meeting but the hell of weather made sure that we don’t enjoy the moments much but even with that, we tried our best to enjoy as much as we can.

The 6 day Wait...!

Its about the vanishing act of the love of my life and yes it was temporal but it was a vanishing act for sure. It was like one day you wake up and try to contact the person of your life and booohoo, you find their phone switched off. You tries to send messages on social sites, emails, whatsapp and what not but no response. You try all the ways again every few hours and then it starts getting tensed.
Hundreds of negative things running in your mind but still you try to be very very positive and  make your mind that some emergency might be the reason for that or their phone gone bad or they are upset of some reason you don't know off. Still, you keep on checking the phone to see the messages getting delivered or for response but all in vain.

So, the story continues the next morning and you get a little more tensed but you carry on with your life. Later in the day, out of sudden you try to call and voila it rang and you are like wohoo , i got it and then suddenly your happiness converts to sadness as the person on the other side is not the one you wanted to reach and you have been told that person don't have their phone and they don't know when you will be able to talk to them. In a ziffy, your mood goes bad and you keep on thinking whats wrong, why this person did this, what on the earth you did wrong or what makes them to not inform you anything and try to play the vanish game with you.

You keep on wondering the whole day with different kind of feelings as in sadness, anger, anxiety and what not. Another day passes but still have the hopes and you keep on checking the things and make speculations what might have happened. You are not getting enough sleep and keep on checking if the msg are getting delivered or if their is some response. three days passes and you are getting sadder as the days are passing and you try to involve yourself in other things and try to be positive as much possible.

A new day comes and since morning you are having  a positive feeling that its the day you will be able to reach them but you don't call and with that hope start your day but that day comes as the worst day for you at work with hundreds of other things running and the whole days completes as frustrated day. In the end, you reach home frustrated, hungry and tired. You try to call but the same things happens with the other person on the other side, you talked and then try to go sleep and to pray that the days should not go more worse and you should sleep. You have teary eyes and you are thinking what to do. Your mind playing games with negative thoughts but you ass your mind to be positive as much as it can be. You try to ignore everything and go to another room and pretend to read the book you are delaying for so long. After you come back, you see multiple missed calls some from known and some unknown numbers. You ignore everything and tries to sleep but again it rang and you pick up to see who the hell on the earth this unknown person wants his worse day more worse and then when you hear the sound of that person you wanted to reach for last so many days, you are not able to speak. You go mum listening to their sound. That feeling is like reaching on top of summit with so much hard work that the joy of it looses. Still you tries to reply but words not coming and you wait to listen what other person want to explain and wait if they can make you worse day a bit pleasant but nothing of that sort happens and their is a eerie silent on both sides. You says good night with a similar response and hung up.

You wait the next day that everything will be sorted out but you don't hear anything that day. Their is not a single call from anyone that day but you go on. Similar thing happens on next day which is day 6 but in the middle of the day when you are between something you see the phone is vibrating and their it is the name you were longing for so long flashing on your screen but the situation don't allow you to pick up at all. You carry on with no further calls and reach home with another missed call and you get all your courage and call back.

You expect some sort of explanation and try to be v v positive throughout with your eyes just holding those little pearls. The person explains their situation and you are like in a dilemma as what next to do. You keep on hearing and then you realize that the those pearls which you were holding have already started rolling from that person's eyes. You are like completely hogged for now and tries to understand the situation but you are feeling happy from inside that you were positive through out and it turned out positive. You feel bit relaxed and the try to calm down that person. You learn a lot of lessons and tries to explains those lessons to that person. Both of them needs to understand: " Somewhere someone is waiting for you".

Pain that reminds me of Gurgaon... Holy Shitty Place...!

Its about that accident that gives me pain even after 9 years. Gurgaon, I hate you, i hate you for giving me this lifelong pain and the awful traffic you have.

It was somewhere in the Summers of 2006, around 8PM, i was going to a friend's places from Noida to Gurgaon. After i reached Gurgaon in that rickety bus after braising the heat for some 3 hours with all that stink ( urghhhh) and crowds.

Gurgaon bus station is like a small town bus station in an Indian town which don't even have the basic facilities. So, i came out of the the bus stand and boarded a shared auto to my destination. I wasnted to reach asap as I was hungry and tired and exhausted. Just after the auto left the bus stand and was moving in my direction ( which had 6 more people inside), a haryana roadways bus came from right side and hit the auto. As soon as it hits, auto lost its balance and i dont remember anything after it as when i got my consiousness back, i was lying on a so called footpath with my phone lying in pieces next to me. I was getting unciousness again an again and traiffc wass moving as usual. I was like, if i go back to unciousness mode, i am gonna die.

 I have tried hard to be up with severe pain in my legs. I somehow tried to make the phone work thanks to the  Nokia 1100 which is like the life savior. It started and i called the first number, luckily, it was of the same friend i was visiting to. I told him that I am not able to move and lying someplace in Gurgaon near bus stand. I was in a shock situation and he was asking  me the exact location of mine but i was not able to tell him. Soon, he hanged up, telling me that he is on his way. I was just lying there with the bad leg and people just moving staring at me. I through to call home but thought, i will call after seeing the damage.

In next 10 mins, my friend found me and he took me in his car and the next thing i remember was a doctor tearing my trousers. All of us were seeing the damage and it was like a blue patch of soreness on my left leg and it was hurting. He soon took me to the X-ray room and in next 15 minutes we had the x-ray showing no fracture. That clinic guy was in so hurry to go home that night that he just gave me a bandage, an ointment and asked to put.

I did what he said and did a huge mistake to not go to doctor next day. Pain was gone in 3-4 days so do the blue patch but that pain comes back sometimes in winters or during mountain hiking etc, not that i do hiking very regularly but whenever i feel the pain there, it reminds me of that night and Gurgaon.  Holy Shitty Place i say.....

The Story of that Girl..!

It about a girl who have dreams, aspirations and feelings filled with emotions. Let’s call her D. She is an independent modern girl with career aspirations and like any Indian household she has the pressure to get married. Her family pushing her to get married. She like an obedient Indian girl accepts but has some expectations from her partner so that the marriage will be a love relationship rather than just a formality.

She had got multiple marriage proposals and has talked to few guys but she was looking something different to match her frequency. One day, she got a profile of a guy; he was ok type but got decent profile. Her parents were looking ahead for a meet. Things went forward and one day she got a call from that guy. She was bit reluctant to talk much to stranger but he tried his best to make her comfortable.

So, after that they talked few times on WhatsApp etc. and it was ok and she agreed to meet the guy. Guy took one month to come over and then the D day arrived in that small town in a small restro.

She was sitting with relatives there waiting for the guy and the wait was killing her as that guy was nowhere seen and everyone was waiting. She thought the guy was not at all interested and making people wait intentional. She was feeling awkward as time was passing.

Finally the guy came but he was sitting backwards and was not able to see the guy. Everyway was giving him the pleasantries and she was able to hear his voice but not able to see him. She tried to do some sneak peak but all in vain. It was like waiting for that perfect moment but things not going as planned. After some time, they made guy sit opposite to her to talk. Guy was dressed just ok and was smiling. She was bit nervous even to see him or take her eyes up. Next her family members were sitting.

Guy tried to strike a talk, asked her for drinks and snacks but she was reluctant in everything and just said hello and some courtesy pleasantries. Guy was feeling like girl is not interested and girl was feeling the opposite. It was really an awkward situation.

Guy asked families to give them some private place as gal was not feeling comfortable at all. It was like when you make a small school girl sit in front a girl and she is all shy and all.

They tried to talk about general stuff but she was not at all making eye contact. Guy was like, hey girl, what’s wrong. We are in touch for so long and he flied down her to meet her from 2000km and she was not at all talking. It was all pissing him badly. Guy asked his mom to take her outside to strike a talk in alone, one last time. Few things were running in his mind but still, it was the moment he want to take chance because that instant he felt this is THE GIRL whom he can actually share rest of his life comfortably.

They both went out and things got pleasant. Girl started being chirpy and was talking bit more. Guy got comfortable. Even though some mongering guys were looking at them form a distance but they dint care and went on their business. Talking different things but not the thing what they came for. :D

After few minutes, they went inside and everyone started asking the opinion. Although, this is a weird thing sin Indian marriage where people expect to choose their life partners within 20-25 minutes talk but as they were talking for last few days, it was bit more comfortable for them.

Girl said yes and so do the guy and everyone was happy and went on to congrats each other. Girl was still bit nervous and thinking if she has taken the correct decision or not. Will this guy be able to deliver what her aspirations are? Will he support her in whatever she will do? She was bit worried if she will got some govt job for which she has worked so hard, will that or his family will support or she has to sacrifice her life for him.

All these things running in her mind, but still she took the risk and said yes. She is a very brave girl who always expects her family to be happy if she has to sacrifice few of the things. Even when the guy asked, if she said yes in pressure or is she ok to go ahead, she said she has decided only after thinking and will go ahead.

She is like a flower who wants to give its smell to everyone but will itself next to thrones.

PS: Girls are the best thing created by the God. They are there for so many things. They deserve so much respect and love but the society don’t care much about them even when they are the creator of the society.

That Meeting of Two Souls :)

So, the day came finally. I was supposed to meet the girl, my family has met earlier. I had also talked to her couple of times over phone. He seemed to be very sweet girl. And you know why all this talking.  Because it’s time to go in to the ditch...  ahahaa I mean getting hitched.

So, everything got planned and we were supposed to meet at that restro with families. I was bit skeptical in this process but there was no way I can escape and try the way I wanted to go for.

Still, everyone left and I was still lazing on the couch and mom scolding to get ready and reach ASAP. I started getting dressed and voila the shirt button fell off and urghhh there was no other decent shirt had ironed. I just got that old shirt of mine and put it on and wore those blue shoes and shoot for the restro.

I was not sure what to talk to and if she will look nicer than phone or less nice because of the nervousness and the all the people around. I went inside and so many people staring at me. I became so uncomfortable and I was just seeing the girl's back in that orange saree. I was eager to look at her but I didn’t as it might show me being too eager. Everyone still staring at me and I went to a seat and sat next to my family.

I was trying to take a sneak peek and I was like is this the same girl I have seen the snap of? She looked way different and cuter. Anyway, after sometime, they let us sat opposite to each other and to make the things more comfortable, I tried to strike in conversation but she was not making any eye contact and I was feeling uncomfortable.

I asked mom to go to different place and tried to talk to her separately. She became bit comfortable then but still there was no eye contact. I was like ok, I like this gal and since we already talked, I feel we will be compatible enough to move ahead but it seems girl is not interested or there is some issue. I was trying my best to make eye contact. Then I asked mo to let us go out and see what happens. There the things went bit different and she was seeing more comfortable and I was just putting some silly talks etc. to her. She was smiling with some locals ogling to her. I was bit uncomfortable as walking with a girl with people starting etc. but who cares.

I decided that, I will go and say yes and let’s see if she says the same or will kick my ass coz of silly talks. But to my surprise, I came to know after getting inside that she agreed. I asked her again for confirmation if she is ready to spend rest of her life with me and she nodded and confirmed and I was filled with joy from inside but dint showed it much. I wanted to hold her hand but even after talking for next 30 minutes was not able to. Families taking snaps again made me a bit uncomfortable but all went well and the Deepika and Nitin became DeepNiti :D :D :D

PS: I know if she will read it, she will kick my ass for just telling my feeling not her. So, it’s an invitation to her to tell her feelings to me and I will portray them in a story with masala and put it on :) :)

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I like words. I like fat buttery words, such as ooze, turpitude, glutinous, toady. I like solemn, angular, creaky words, such as straitlaced, cantankerous, pecunious, valedictory. I like spurious, black-is-white words, such as mortician, liquidate, tonsorial, demi-monde. I like suave “V” words, such as Svengali, svelte, bravura, verve. I like crunchy, brittle, crackly words, such as splinter, grapple, jostle, crusty. I like sullen, crabbed, scowling words, such as skulk, glower, scabby, churl. I like Oh-Heavens, my-gracious, land’s-sake words, such as tricksy, tucker, genteel, horrid. I like elegant, flowery words, such as estivate, peregrinate, elysium, halcyon. I like wormy, squirmy, mealy words, such as crawl, blubber, squeal, drip. I like sniggly, chuckling words, such as cowlick, gurgle, bubble and burp.

I like the word screenwriter better than copywriter, so I decided to quit my job in a New York advertising agency and try my luck in Hollywood, but before taking the plunge I went to Europe for a year of study, contemplation and horsing around.

I have just returned and I still like words.

May I have a few with you?

Robert Pirosh
385 Madison Avenue
Room 610
New York
Eldorado 5-6024

That Day in Hospital...............

THe last thing I remember is that I was shivering with the cold and trying to reach my bag in other room to search some meds but I was not able to. It was a weekday and almost 4 PM and I had take a day off as I was not feeling well.

Now, few hours back, there  was a pungent smell around me but my eyes were closed and i was feeling pain in my left hand. With the eye lids got opened, what I see was that I am lying on the hospital bed with a syringe in my hand with a bottle of glucose. No one around me. I am not finding my cell phone too. I was not aware that how i came here and what exactly has happened. Next though came to my mind is who has taken me here and get me admitted and for how long I am out and many other gazillion questions running my nerves.

i was seeing some nurses going here and there, talking to patients. Docs wandering around with the reports in their hand but no one was coming to me. I was feeling like shouting that "please, can someone tell me if I am alive or its some dream or what has happened to me". But no one was even looking at me like I was invisible there.

I kept staring the activities going around and went into the thoughts while inhaling that pungent smell. Don't know what smell like this, for sure its not some meds.

Suddenly, i tried to reach down to the bed and I see my trousers there. I lift them and i was like  OMG, i got it, i got my phone. It was like i found some kind of treasure. Then i looked at the screen. 34 missed calls, 5 messages, 200 whatsapp messages ( ppl nowdayz prefer the free whatsapp then call/msg). Most of the calls were from home and ofc colleagues. I see the message from a team mate, asking my whereabouts and asking some crap related to the project. I dint bothered about it and ignored. Then, I see the last received call and it was from a friend who was supposed to come meet me that night. I see the duration as 36 secs. Suddenly, I though may it was he who has taken me to hospital. I tried calling his no but it was busy.

After that I lost in my thoughts and suddenly someone tapped on my shoulder and it was a nurse asking me to bend to give me some sort of injection. even seeing the syringes makes me nervous and there i was getting injected with some kind yellowish liquid solution. I tried asking her what has happened to me and blurted hundreds of questions just in a span of 5 sec. She smiled and say, dont worry, you will be ok soon. Take rest. Your friend might be coming. Then, i felt a sigh of relief that it was my friend only who have got me here.

I just kept thinking and just slept. Now, I woke up an hour back and writing this stuff and I don't find anyone near me. It dead in the night and I am still waiting for my friend. I don't know whats next.....


To be Continued as the story folds....!

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This is interesting.

RSA key extraction from PC by touch.

http://www.cs.tau.ac.il/~tromer/handsoff/

Embarrassing..!

So, few days back, one friend of mine sent me this article of his about him deleting his Facebook account. I really liked it and uploaded it on my blog as I have done this couple of times before as well.

Today, I was suprised to see that he has actually copied it from another blog and he has even told me to follow that blog as its a good one and have a range of interesting stuff. ( I have deleted that imeediately after knowing and now on its only gonna be my content here and no one else).

Now, i have to go through all 2-3 blog posts he has given to me and verify if they are also copied one or are original.

This is embarrassing i say..  TRUST people trust.

Here in India we are like so much into plagirism that we dont even think its wrong and take it for granted.

Two Sides of Her

She took my heart and my soul
Her clinching smile made me fool
Her mesmerizing talks made me bloom
But her heart rendering  departure made me gloom..

Getting List of Installed Programs on Windows

1. Start cmd.
2. Type wmic on command prompt to run Windows Management Instrumentation Command-line tool.
3. Type /output:D:\InstallProgs.txt product get name,version on command prompt. 

It will take some time so write depending upon the list of the installed programs,

Why O why.. Do you Lie?

Some of the people in my life are just biggest LIARS i have ever met. I know people sometimes do lie depending upon the priorities and the circumstances but lying always and lying differently to different people is something i cant stand with.

GOD SAVE THEM!

You are my lover and my best friend :)

An Australian friend of mine reminds me of a song by suzi quantro


You are my lover and my best friend
I think I've found the perfect blend
I don't want this to ever end
'Cause I don't know what I'd do then
I was drifting along from man to man
They slipped through my fingers like they're made of sand
I wouldn't put up with their demands
Everytime they did, I turned and ran

I was going through hell when I met you
You said you were going through the same thing too
I was so lonely everything looked blue
You've been just like a dream come true

There was a girl

whose touch felt like heaven,
making me shiver all through my nerves

whose voice was so deepening
filling my mind like the music

whose body was sleek
rubbing her hand softer then silk

whose life was like a open book
with the blank pages
seems her love has washed its ink
over and over again....