The 6 day Wait...!

Its about the vanishing act of the love of my life and yes it was temporal but it was a vanishing act for sure. It was like one day you wake up and try to contact the person of your life and booohoo, you find their phone switched off. You tries to send messages on social sites, emails, whatsapp and what not but no response. You try all the ways again every few hours and then it starts getting tensed.
Hundreds of negative things running in your mind but still you try to be very very positive and  make your mind that some emergency might be the reason for that or their phone gone bad or they are upset of some reason you don't know off. Still, you keep on checking the phone to see the messages getting delivered or for response but all in vain.

So, the story continues the next morning and you get a little more tensed but you carry on with your life. Later in the day, out of sudden you try to call and voila it rang and you are like wohoo , i got it and then suddenly your happiness converts to sadness as the person on the other side is not the one you wanted to reach and you have been told that person don't have their phone and they don't know when you will be able to talk to them. In a ziffy, your mood goes bad and you keep on thinking whats wrong, why this person did this, what on the earth you did wrong or what makes them to not inform you anything and try to play the vanish game with you.

You keep on wondering the whole day with different kind of feelings as in sadness, anger, anxiety and what not. Another day passes but still have the hopes and you keep on checking the things and make speculations what might have happened. You are not getting enough sleep and keep on checking if the msg are getting delivered or if their is some response. three days passes and you are getting sadder as the days are passing and you try to involve yourself in other things and try to be positive as much possible.

A new day comes and since morning you are having  a positive feeling that its the day you will be able to reach them but you don't call and with that hope start your day but that day comes as the worst day for you at work with hundreds of other things running and the whole days completes as frustrated day. In the end, you reach home frustrated, hungry and tired. You try to call but the same things happens with the other person on the other side, you talked and then try to go sleep and to pray that the days should not go more worse and you should sleep. You have teary eyes and you are thinking what to do. Your mind playing games with negative thoughts but you ass your mind to be positive as much as it can be. You try to ignore everything and go to another room and pretend to read the book you are delaying for so long. After you come back, you see multiple missed calls some from known and some unknown numbers. You ignore everything and tries to sleep but again it rang and you pick up to see who the hell on the earth this unknown person wants his worse day more worse and then when you hear the sound of that person you wanted to reach for last so many days, you are not able to speak. You go mum listening to their sound. That feeling is like reaching on top of summit with so much hard work that the joy of it looses. Still you tries to reply but words not coming and you wait to listen what other person want to explain and wait if they can make you worse day a bit pleasant but nothing of that sort happens and their is a eerie silent on both sides. You says good night with a similar response and hung up.

You wait the next day that everything will be sorted out but you don't hear anything that day. Their is not a single call from anyone that day but you go on. Similar thing happens on next day which is day 6 but in the middle of the day when you are between something you see the phone is vibrating and their it is the name you were longing for so long flashing on your screen but the situation don't allow you to pick up at all. You carry on with no further calls and reach home with another missed call and you get all your courage and call back.

You expect some sort of explanation and try to be v v positive throughout with your eyes just holding those little pearls. The person explains their situation and you are like in a dilemma as what next to do. You keep on hearing and then you realize that the those pearls which you were holding have already started rolling from that person's eyes. You are like completely hogged for now and tries to understand the situation but you are feeling happy from inside that you were positive through out and it turned out positive. You feel bit relaxed and the try to calm down that person. You learn a lot of lessons and tries to explains those lessons to that person. Both of them needs to understand: " Somewhere someone is waiting for you".

Pain that reminds me of Gurgaon... Holy Shitty Place...!

Its about that accident that gives me pain even after 9 years. Gurgaon, I hate you, i hate you for giving me this lifelong pain and the awful traffic you have.

It was somewhere in the Summers of 2006, around 8PM, i was going to a friend's places from Noida to Gurgaon. After i reached Gurgaon in that rickety bus after braising the heat for some 3 hours with all that stink ( urghhhh) and crowds.

Gurgaon bus station is like a small town bus station in an Indian town which don't even have the basic facilities. So, i came out of the the bus stand and boarded a shared auto to my destination. I wasnted to reach asap as I was hungry and tired and exhausted. Just after the auto left the bus stand and was moving in my direction ( which had 6 more people inside), a haryana roadways bus came from right side and hit the auto. As soon as it hits, auto lost its balance and i dont remember anything after it as when i got my consiousness back, i was lying on a so called footpath with my phone lying in pieces next to me. I was getting unciousness again an again and traiffc wass moving as usual. I was like, if i go back to unciousness mode, i am gonna die.

 I have tried hard to be up with severe pain in my legs. I somehow tried to make the phone work thanks to the  Nokia 1100 which is like the life savior. It started and i called the first number, luckily, it was of the same friend i was visiting to. I told him that I am not able to move and lying someplace in Gurgaon near bus stand. I was in a shock situation and he was asking  me the exact location of mine but i was not able to tell him. Soon, he hanged up, telling me that he is on his way. I was just lying there with the bad leg and people just moving staring at me. I through to call home but thought, i will call after seeing the damage.

In next 10 mins, my friend found me and he took me in his car and the next thing i remember was a doctor tearing my trousers. All of us were seeing the damage and it was like a blue patch of soreness on my left leg and it was hurting. He soon took me to the X-ray room and in next 15 minutes we had the x-ray showing no fracture. That clinic guy was in so hurry to go home that night that he just gave me a bandage, an ointment and asked to put.

I did what he said and did a huge mistake to not go to doctor next day. Pain was gone in 3-4 days so do the blue patch but that pain comes back sometimes in winters or during mountain hiking etc, not that i do hiking very regularly but whenever i feel the pain there, it reminds me of that night and Gurgaon.  Holy Shitty Place i say.....

The Story of that Girl..!

It about a girl who have dreams, aspirations and feelings filled with emotions. Let’s call her D. She is an independent modern girl with career aspirations and like any Indian household she has the pressure to get married. Her family pushing her to get married. She like an obedient Indian girl accepts but has some expectations from her partner so that the marriage will be a love relationship rather than just a formality.

She had got multiple marriage proposals and has talked to few guys but she was looking something different to match her frequency. One day, she got a profile of a guy; he was ok type but got decent profile. Her parents were looking ahead for a meet. Things went forward and one day she got a call from that guy. She was bit reluctant to talk much to stranger but he tried his best to make her comfortable.

So, after that they talked few times on WhatsApp etc. and it was ok and she agreed to meet the guy. Guy took one month to come over and then the D day arrived in that small town in a small restro.

She was sitting with relatives there waiting for the guy and the wait was killing her as that guy was nowhere seen and everyone was waiting. She thought the guy was not at all interested and making people wait intentional. She was feeling awkward as time was passing.

Finally the guy came but he was sitting backwards and was not able to see the guy. Everyway was giving him the pleasantries and she was able to hear his voice but not able to see him. She tried to do some sneak peak but all in vain. It was like waiting for that perfect moment but things not going as planned. After some time, they made guy sit opposite to her to talk. Guy was dressed just ok and was smiling. She was bit nervous even to see him or take her eyes up. Next her family members were sitting.

Guy tried to strike a talk, asked her for drinks and snacks but she was reluctant in everything and just said hello and some courtesy pleasantries. Guy was feeling like girl is not interested and girl was feeling the opposite. It was really an awkward situation.

Guy asked families to give them some private place as gal was not feeling comfortable at all. It was like when you make a small school girl sit in front a girl and she is all shy and all.

They tried to talk about general stuff but she was not at all making eye contact. Guy was like, hey girl, what’s wrong. We are in touch for so long and he flied down her to meet her from 2000km and she was not at all talking. It was all pissing him badly. Guy asked his mom to take her outside to strike a talk in alone, one last time. Few things were running in his mind but still, it was the moment he want to take chance because that instant he felt this is THE GIRL whom he can actually share rest of his life comfortably.

They both went out and things got pleasant. Girl started being chirpy and was talking bit more. Guy got comfortable. Even though some mongering guys were looking at them form a distance but they dint care and went on their business. Talking different things but not the thing what they came for. :D

After few minutes, they went inside and everyone started asking the opinion. Although, this is a weird thing sin Indian marriage where people expect to choose their life partners within 20-25 minutes talk but as they were talking for last few days, it was bit more comfortable for them.

Girl said yes and so do the guy and everyone was happy and went on to congrats each other. Girl was still bit nervous and thinking if she has taken the correct decision or not. Will this guy be able to deliver what her aspirations are? Will he support her in whatever she will do? She was bit worried if she will got some govt job for which she has worked so hard, will that or his family will support or she has to sacrifice her life for him.

All these things running in her mind, but still she took the risk and said yes. She is a very brave girl who always expects her family to be happy if she has to sacrifice few of the things. Even when the guy asked, if she said yes in pressure or is she ok to go ahead, she said she has decided only after thinking and will go ahead.

She is like a flower who wants to give its smell to everyone but will itself next to thrones.

PS: Girls are the best thing created by the God. They are there for so many things. They deserve so much respect and love but the society don’t care much about them even when they are the creator of the society.

That Meeting of Two Souls :)

So, the day came finally. I was supposed to meet the girl, my family has met earlier. I had also talked to her couple of times over phone. He seemed to be very sweet girl. And you know why all this talking.  Because it’s time to go in to the ditch...  ahahaa I mean getting hitched.

So, everything got planned and we were supposed to meet at that restro with families. I was bit skeptical in this process but there was no way I can escape and try the way I wanted to go for.

Still, everyone left and I was still lazing on the couch and mom scolding to get ready and reach ASAP. I started getting dressed and voila the shirt button fell off and urghhh there was no other decent shirt had ironed. I just got that old shirt of mine and put it on and wore those blue shoes and shoot for the restro.

I was not sure what to talk to and if she will look nicer than phone or less nice because of the nervousness and the all the people around. I went inside and so many people staring at me. I became so uncomfortable and I was just seeing the girl's back in that orange saree. I was eager to look at her but I didn’t as it might show me being too eager. Everyone still staring at me and I went to a seat and sat next to my family.

I was trying to take a sneak peek and I was like is this the same girl I have seen the snap of? She looked way different and cuter. Anyway, after sometime, they let us sat opposite to each other and to make the things more comfortable, I tried to strike in conversation but she was not making any eye contact and I was feeling uncomfortable.

I asked mom to go to different place and tried to talk to her separately. She became bit comfortable then but still there was no eye contact. I was like ok, I like this gal and since we already talked, I feel we will be compatible enough to move ahead but it seems girl is not interested or there is some issue. I was trying my best to make eye contact. Then I asked mo to let us go out and see what happens. There the things went bit different and she was seeing more comfortable and I was just putting some silly talks etc. to her. She was smiling with some locals ogling to her. I was bit uncomfortable as walking with a girl with people starting etc. but who cares.

I decided that, I will go and say yes and let’s see if she says the same or will kick my ass coz of silly talks. But to my surprise, I came to know after getting inside that she agreed. I asked her again for confirmation if she is ready to spend rest of her life with me and she nodded and confirmed and I was filled with joy from inside but dint showed it much. I wanted to hold her hand but even after talking for next 30 minutes was not able to. Families taking snaps again made me a bit uncomfortable but all went well and the Deepika and Nitin became DeepNiti :D :D :D

PS: I know if she will read it, she will kick my ass for just telling my feeling not her. So, it’s an invitation to her to tell her feelings to me and I will portray them in a story with masala and put it on :) :)

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I have just returned and I still like words.

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Room 610
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That Day in Hospital...............

THe last thing I remember is that I was shivering with the cold and trying to reach my bag in other room to search some meds but I was not able to. It was a weekday and almost 4 PM and I had take a day off as I was not feeling well.

Now, few hours back, there  was a pungent smell around me but my eyes were closed and i was feeling pain in my left hand. With the eye lids got opened, what I see was that I am lying on the hospital bed with a syringe in my hand with a bottle of glucose. No one around me. I am not finding my cell phone too. I was not aware that how i came here and what exactly has happened. Next though came to my mind is who has taken me here and get me admitted and for how long I am out and many other gazillion questions running my nerves.

i was seeing some nurses going here and there, talking to patients. Docs wandering around with the reports in their hand but no one was coming to me. I was feeling like shouting that "please, can someone tell me if I am alive or its some dream or what has happened to me". But no one was even looking at me like I was invisible there.

I kept staring the activities going around and went into the thoughts while inhaling that pungent smell. Don't know what smell like this, for sure its not some meds.

Suddenly, i tried to reach down to the bed and I see my trousers there. I lift them and i was like  OMG, i got it, i got my phone. It was like i found some kind of treasure. Then i looked at the screen. 34 missed calls, 5 messages, 200 whatsapp messages ( ppl nowdayz prefer the free whatsapp then call/msg). Most of the calls were from home and ofc colleagues. I see the message from a team mate, asking my whereabouts and asking some crap related to the project. I dint bothered about it and ignored. Then, I see the last received call and it was from a friend who was supposed to come meet me that night. I see the duration as 36 secs. Suddenly, I though may it was he who has taken me to hospital. I tried calling his no but it was busy.

After that I lost in my thoughts and suddenly someone tapped on my shoulder and it was a nurse asking me to bend to give me some sort of injection. even seeing the syringes makes me nervous and there i was getting injected with some kind yellowish liquid solution. I tried asking her what has happened to me and blurted hundreds of questions just in a span of 5 sec. She smiled and say, dont worry, you will be ok soon. Take rest. Your friend might be coming. Then, i felt a sigh of relief that it was my friend only who have got me here.

I just kept thinking and just slept. Now, I woke up an hour back and writing this stuff and I don't find anyone near me. It dead in the night and I am still waiting for my friend. I don't know whats next.....


To be Continued as the story folds....!

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